Happy

You know, I try to never say that I'm bored. And I try. Because once I read that only 'boring' people get bored. But honestly, during this state of 'nothingness' that I seem to be within, I can feel a faint bickering, that urges me to do greater things for myself instead of  just hanging out here. Like studying.

Does that make me boring? I guess it does... since all I've done so far was read horror and shoujo and crossdressing and yaoi mangas and I've finished so many series' that I'e lost track of the day of the week. What am I doing with my life? I've made the excuse of having to 'relax', but I've had enough.

Today I went shopping with my family. I was somewhat happy, just to spend time with them. I've avoided contact with friends for the most part. Every time the holiday comes, I fall into this period where I avoid them. Not long ago I walked into a shop to buy earrings but back out after seeing the profile of an old school mate. We were never close, but I left either way. I wonder if she noticed me, and I hope that my sudden turn around could have just been thought of as me being in a rush.

It's a shame I can't openly express myself. I have roast port belly today and it was delicious. I learnt how to make it today. Not that I made it.