Somehow..

Somehow looking at this blog and trying to write something for this blog makes my chest hurt. It's a mental hurt. It's a physical hurt. It's an overarching sadness that makes me want to cry right now but I won't. Maybe it's because it's the end of the holidays and I'm scrambling to finish my homework.

But I think I'm regretting really hard right now and all can I can do is wallow in this regret, embarrassment, worry, annoyance and shyness by myself for a while. I have been for a while. Hope it ends soon so I can carry myself on without this cloud over my head.

I like this song. Also I stupidly used cold turkey and pressed something at it blocked a LOT of my favourite sites for a month. Could this be a chance to change?